She needed the power. I didn't stop her from taking it.

[.....]

I could, but also couldn't. Not without risking my position with both of them. I was Sophia's watchdog, a way for her to keep her daughter on another leash, but I was also Eleanor's tool.....and her ally, albeit one she didn't trust, united in our hatred for her mother.

All that precarious juggling of plates for the sake of my revenge.